Emotional charting

I have followed the stock market for the better part of 20 years now. My dad, a true market master, instilled in me the desire to be an observer and participant of the grand game.

One of the most fascinating things about the market is to look at stock price charts. They tell the "emotional" story of price discovery in the markets. Candlestick charts, which originated in Japan some 500 years ago, are a meaningful window in the market participants emotional reality.

If I was to chart my own personal emotional index with the events of the last 12 days, it might look like this....

Cary's emotional index

It shows a steady decline; Then a quick uptick, followed by a crash to new lows....Stocks usually hit a bottom when fear and panic set in, and I'm hoping the same hold true in my own emotional index, which hit new lows two days ago. After all the bad news is out and priced in, how much lower can you go?

I have received calls, emails, and texts from friends and neighbors, and seen alot of people. They all kind of look at me funny and say "Wow, I can't even imagine what your going through right now...."

Its true: this is an intensely difficult and painful chapter. There is no sugarcoating the feelings of helplessness, sadness, and fear. It sucks. However, the good news is that Sara and I are handling it all pretty well. And we will get through this.

This blog started as a way to tell our story to other MOMO families, whose blogs we read, to provide guidance and comfort through these uncharted waters. Then it was a way to keep folks updated about the progress of the girls and to avoid 40 phone calls a day.....Some part of it has now turned into a release mechanism; It feels good to write about the roller coaster of emotion through these pages, and we hope that other families that go through difficult situations like this will share some comfort that they are not alone.



Kathryn, Sara's Mom, & Megan

 Many of the previous posts have been fairly dark I admit; but hey, this isn't exactly rainbow and unicorn territory right now. The good news is we still have a sense of humor, no one is jumping off any cliffs, and we still have a sense of excitement about the future with our new ladies. Thanks for all the wonderful outreach and support.


Sara, Kathryn, and Megan



Sara parents have been in town for several weeks now, and this past weekend her sisters came to visit; Megan in from Park City for the weekend, and Kathryn who is in from California for a week. I know Sara is happy to see them, and its great that they are here.

With that said, it has been a happily "uneventful" two days. Here is the update:

Ashlyn:

• After discontinuing her feeds and inserting the 2nd chest tube 2 days ago, her fluid drainage has slowed to around 20 CC's as of last night-Relatively good news
• Her lungs look pretty good, and she is off antibiotics-good news
• They have decided to remove her original chest tube (right side) tomorrow! This should be GREAT news, but I am tabling my enthusiasm as they say the tube is now clogged and most of the drainage is coming out of the other side. So, an incremental improvement I suppose.
• Lasik treatments to act as a diuretic

Her main problem continues to be this Chylothorax, which is serious. It needs to close, and soon.

Everyone repeat after me: "Attention Ashlyn Hayes's Thoracic duct-CLOSE NOW!!!!! Thank you for your cooperation."



Sara "Kangarooing" with Hanna



Hanna:

No major issues, other than her high heart rate. Every time I try to get excited about it, and worry about it, the doctors tell me to chill. So I'm not worrying about it.

Sara is doing daily Kangaroo care and she is increasing her feeds. She may get her "pick line" IV out soon!

All in all, things are stable with incremental improvements.

Thanks for all the love ands support. Please pray and send power to our girls!